Aygen Cagman awoke face down, inhaling the smell of old dirty sheets. She was lucky; some of her friends slept on straw pallets. She could feel the plaster dust floating in the air over her bare back, and knew that if she turned around, she would see them dancing beautifully, reflecting the light where the sun shone through the holes in the ceiling. But she didn’t turn around. There was always the danger, this early in the morning, of some shell hitting nearby and knocking more plaster off the ceiling and into her eyes.
Aygen turned and shook Mualla Arif, one of those friends who slept on straw pallets, awake. Mualla’s home had been destroyed in one of the all-too-frequent skirmishes between the local crime bosses and the police, and her husband had been killed in the fighting. Her son, Suphi, lay at the other side of the apartment, tossing fitfully, still in the grip of some dark dream.
Aygen and Mualla let him lie, each shrugging on the clothes they would wear that day. Aygen preferred utilitarian trousers and jacket, but Mualla had taken to the Ozian hijab, and one draped her head and shoulders now. Aygen had long since given up trying to convince Mualla not to wear it. She claimed it was her birthright: her mother had been Ozian, or so she claimed. She wasn’t really sure. She talked about converting to Gaenism too, but that Aygen found intolerable.
“I don’t see why you can’t accept that Gaenism is the most progressive religion there is, Aygen,” complained Mualla, stirring the pot of corn meal that would be their only breakfast. “It’s all about unity and brotherhood, or that solidarity you’re always gabbing about.”
“But don’t you see that nobody even follows the precepts of Gaenism? If they did, Ozia, or anywhere, for that matter, wouldn’t be exploited the way it is now.”
“You can’t blame Gaenism for that, the illumatist Xyraelis don’t practice it,” Mualla retorted, turning the heat down low.
Aygen pulled her shoe on as she smiled in apparent victory. “But what about all the collaborators, who run the businesses in the name of the oppressors. Don’t you think that—”
She was cut off by Suphi’s ear-splitting yawn. The boy ran to embrace his mother as she removed the corn meal porridge from the stove and handed it to Aygen, who served. “Let’s not talk about that now,” she said, glancing around pointedly. “They might be listening.” But their meal was not interrupted, and after it was over the two women went their separate ways: Mualla to her job as a seamstress, Aygen, supposedly, to her work in the quarry. She ducked out of sight of a passing Xyraeli patrol as she turned to her real destination.